[This is not my usual fitness post, but something that I wanted to write for a friend.]

Goodbye Shannon

You did not go gentle into that good night,
You burnt and raved at close of day;
You raged, and raged against the dying of the light.

And yet, here you are, saying goodbye to your little boys, having raged the war and lost. Your life started and will end as the universe deems but your soul will live on.

Did you get to hug your boys one last time?
Did you get to kiss your mom one last time?
Did you get to go through your bucket list? Did you get to do what you had wanted to do?

Facing this is hard for you, and harder for family around you. I’m not pretending to have known you better than your other friends. Yet here I am from far, loving on you, trying to not be afraid. Because you were one of us. You WERE all of us. Moms, wives, employees, going about their everyday life when adversity hit.

It’s made me face frail mortality and the unfairness and uncertainty of life. 

And ask some not so pleasant questions of myself. 

Have I been the person I wanted to be when I was 5?
What happens in the after? Is it afterlife? Does the soul move on to another body?
Will you know the moment that your soul leaves your body?

I tried to be calm, but I am scared.
I tried to think of the past fondly, but I am bitter.
I tried to send you vibes of peace but I am turbulent.
(All these *I* at the time of your need)

So I did the only thing I know. 

I ran.

This run was for you, Shannon. 

It was mysteriously misty at one of my favorite places – Kennesaw Mountain trails! And I imagined you drifting from one life into another just so. You were in that mist laughing at your boys, soaking your feet in the warm mist of a tropical resort as you often did. 

 

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Goodbye, dear Shannon. Goodbye.
When it is time for you to go, go gentle into that good night.

[Our friend Shannon, mommy to two boys the same age as my girls, is at the end of her life, with cancer taking over her body and we are told that we can only wish for a peaceful passing now.]

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Goodbye, Dear Shannon
  • Toni Church

    Im sorry, this is a beautiful remebrance.

  • Jennifer Pug Pug

    I’m so very sorry.

  • I am so sorry for you and Shannon’s family. I hope this gives you some comfort

  • Katie Shepherd

    I am so sorry about your friend. Prayers for strength, comfort and peace 🙁

  • I am so, so sorry. This is a lovely tribute to your friend, and your friendship, and something for us all to ponder.

  • I’ve got goosebumps reading this. I’m so sorry.

  • Oh, this is such a beautiful tribute, but probably extremely painful to write. Thoughts, prayers, and many hugs to you.

  • I am so sorry to hear your loss. It’s difficult to lose someone dear to you. What a heartfelt ode to your friend. Thank you for sharing.

  • Michelle@Running with Attitude

    A beautiful tribute. I’m so sorry.

  • Andrea Signor

    Oh my gosh. I’m so sorry. I will keep you, your friend, and her family in my thoughts and hope you all find some peace. Thank you for sharing a piece of her with us. She sounds like a wonderful friend and mother.

  • Anna Sherwood

    So sorry for your loss.

  • I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a beautiful tribute to Shannon, it made me tear up!!

  • So sorry for the loss of your special friend. Prayers for you and all her family.

  • Kathryn Thayer

    I’m so sorry to hear about Shannon. I’ll be sure to say an extra prayer for her tonight.

  • Oh Smitha 🙁 I am so very sorry. I wish Shannon a peaceful exit to this world and I wish you the strength needed in losing a friend. xx